I miss you a little more on the days...

I miss you a little more on the days when I see something funny and remember that I'll never hear your laugh again. It was so contagious. 

I miss you a little more when I see a breathtaking sunset. The ones that look like the sky's on fire. Filled with orange,yellows and reds. The kind where you pull to the side of the road just to take it all in. 

I miss you a little more when I get my necklace tangled up in a knot. You would so carefully untangle the delicate chain. You were always so patient with everything.

I miss you a little more when I look at my kids and realize how grown up they have become. I can't help but to feel like you missed it. 

I miss you a little more when I hear someone opening a can of beer. I remember how you would always turn the tab to the side.

 I miss you a little more when I smell freshly chopped silage. Silage season was your favorite time of year.

 I miss you a little more on the days when I see Mom crying. She's always happy to see me but I know that she's crying for you. For that I feel helpless. You will always be the one that she lost. She will grieve you for the rest of her life.

I miss you a little more on the sleepless nights when all I can do is pray. I thank God for your 34 years of life and all the memories we shared. The greatest gift our parents gave me was you. 

I miss you a little more on the warm summer nights when the alfalfa fields are lit up with the light of a thousand lightning bugs. 

I wish you were here to hear me say that I miss you everyday.

Even though nothing has changed. I want you to know that even though you're not here the memories of you have always stayed.